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I always get confused and lose track of the plot because I can’t take in information through my ears very well
This response was super confusing until I realized that some people mean RPGs when they say “tabletop gaming.”
I’ve done tabletop RPGs through written internet chat in the past. OP might find that easier to follow, if they are interested.
I actually prefer doing them through written internet chat, personally, but IRL lets you do a bit of social activity for bonding with more local people.